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Cravings and head speak

I have begun to notice the voices in my head a lot more after reading Dr. Phil's book. I always talk myself through cravings, sometimes the cravings win and I end up feeling guilty.

Yesterday I did some shopping therapy. I bought myself two books, a new hair removal product, and some sunless tanning spray along with a skirt that I didn't try on and now has to be returned.

Stupid skirt. It didn't make any sense at all because it was my size and I held it up to myself in the store! I know I have an ample bottom, but things shouldn't fit tight there and like a tent around my waist. It is so not fair the way clothes are made these days. Having an hour-glass figure has its ups and downs.

Sorry, the point I was trying to get to was that we now have Christmas stuff all over the stores. And that means lots of chocolate and candy and goodies that I was very tempted by. I kept telling myself that I could just buy a small candy bar and enjoy it because I deserve it. But I know where that will lead and I shouldn't be rewarding myself with chocolate. In the end I found something to help.

They sell bite size chocolates (like you have in bags for Halloween in America), and you can buy just one! It was perfect. I bought the supermini twix and was happy with it. I was very proud of myself because I wanted to eat everything in sight.

I went for a 25 minute walk this morning because it was gorgeous out and I couldn't use pain or rain (heh) as an excuse. It was good. I actually felt like I could have went for longer, but I will leave it for this afternoon. It is always better to not overdo it and end up hurting myself.

Yes I stepped on the scale again this morning. If it is right that means I've lost around a half a kilo for the week, which I will take. I will take any loss and be happy with it.

I have some real challenges ahead on the weekend. We are staying at mr ralph's mom's house because she is going out of town. I will bring healthy food with me, but I will have to fight the temptation of raiding her refrigerator. The cheese, the chocolate.... It is a nightmare waiting to happen.

Mr ralph really wants to stay over there because she has cable tv and it is a perfect time for him to watch whatever he wants. Plus I invited a friend and her boyfriend over for dinner and drinks on Saturday night. We decided to get take away, and that is going to be a tough one too.

I wish for once I didn't have to worry about everything I put in my mouth.

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