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Disgusting

I feel awful. Yesterday I ate too much, Too much for lunch, and too much at the party.

I don't know why I did it. At one point I already felt full (which is a rarity for me on a normal eating day) and still had a slice of the cheesecake. Although it was a tiny slice, I know I shouldn't have. I don't even know around how many points I over did it by.

I am afraid of going back to work today. I literally had bad dreams about it.

I have to get moving and do some exercise before getting myself together for the day. I don't even want to eat today I feel so awful.

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Denise said…
I think paragraph #3 explains paragraph #2 - you're worried about going back to work and so you coped (just a wee bit) by eating more than you normally would. It was only one meal on one day and you're fine now, so just give yourself permission to be worried or nervous or both and then feel it.
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