Hello to all of you all of you coming via Michele, thanks for stopping by and I only hope it was worth the trip over.
I began reading through the questions on the Slimmer of The Year application today. Of course there are so many things I want to include, but I can't possibly write everything I want to or they will be getting a novel.
When I started thinking of how long I have been overweight and the reasons I struggled for so long with food and weight issues a lot of memories came back to me.
I've been challanged by my weight for most of my life. Granted some of that time I only thought I was fat when I really wasn't. The point is that I have been fat inside my head for as long as I can remember.
One of the most shameful and embarrassing moments was when I was 15 and some of the boys in my class thought it was funny to sing "thunder, thunder, thunder thighs hooooooo!" when they saw me coming to the tune of the cartoon "Thunder Cats."
That experience really hurt even though I tried to ignore them, every time I heard them singing I wanted to crawl inside a hole and hide.
I still have to remind myself that this is really happening to me, I am actually going to reach my goal, and this is only the beginning of the rest of my life. I have all the tools to stay here now. I've lost large amounts of weight in the past, but I've never truly been where I am today before.
This time is different because I've made it here through hard work. I have spent the last few years relearning and reconditioning my attitude towards food. I've learned a lot about myself and have grown stronger emotionally through the process.
I began reading through the questions on the Slimmer of The Year application today. Of course there are so many things I want to include, but I can't possibly write everything I want to or they will be getting a novel.
When I started thinking of how long I have been overweight and the reasons I struggled for so long with food and weight issues a lot of memories came back to me.
I've been challanged by my weight for most of my life. Granted some of that time I only thought I was fat when I really wasn't. The point is that I have been fat inside my head for as long as I can remember.
One of the most shameful and embarrassing moments was when I was 15 and some of the boys in my class thought it was funny to sing "thunder, thunder, thunder thighs hooooooo!" when they saw me coming to the tune of the cartoon "Thunder Cats."
That experience really hurt even though I tried to ignore them, every time I heard them singing I wanted to crawl inside a hole and hide.
I still have to remind myself that this is really happening to me, I am actually going to reach my goal, and this is only the beginning of the rest of my life. I have all the tools to stay here now. I've lost large amounts of weight in the past, but I've never truly been where I am today before.
This time is different because I've made it here through hard work. I have spent the last few years relearning and reconditioning my attitude towards food. I've learned a lot about myself and have grown stronger emotionally through the process.
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Have a lovely day!
i'm here via Michele...hello!
Michele, the spreader of comment love and joy, sent me. I will be back. I'd like to see when you cross the finish line. I'll be cheering for you.
You are so right...weightloss never happens right by just eating well and exercising religiously. I mean surely one looses tons of weight like this. But though this part is really hard, the really TOUGH one is to keep it off. Aknowledging the issues that built the fat at the first time is all that matters. And you have done this so well :)
As for those boys, I bet they are bald with beer bellies now! And smelly breaths too!!!
Oh, and Michele sent me.
Oh and Michele sent me!
Congratulations on your weight loss and your new attitude!
I just wanted to say that the phrase, "fat inside my head" is ringing so true to me. I guess until I get "skinny inside my head" I may always struggle with my weight. You gave me a good tool for my journey. Thank you.
Michele sent me!
And I admire you for working so hard to meet your goals. It's really inspiring for those of us who are far far away from our goals.
Been here before, and will be back, but for today, hello, Michele, sent me
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I can really relate to what you said about "always being fat in your head". That's how I have been ALL of my life and now that I am overweight (due to hypothyroidism) it's been the toughest battle to try and get it off. I will NEVER complain about being 5'6" and 143 lbs.!! I have you on my list of favorite blogs and will check in from time to time to see how you are doing!!
In my comments you asked about my surgery, I blogged about it here if you ever have about 4 hours. LOL! http://skinnierthanacow.blogspot.com/2005/04/its-all-in-my-head.html