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Day 5 - Defiant

I got on the scale this morning only to discover that my weight has not budged. Not one itsy bitsy bit. I am still exactly the same as I was at my weigh-in on Saturday. All of my hard work with the detox and the extra exercise has not paid off..... yet.

Tomorrow may show some loss because it has happened before, but I'm not going to hold my breath.

You see this weight loss journey has been a very long one for me, and this is not the first bumpy road. Just before I got married I thought I would try to lose as much as possible as every woman does, but the 3 months leading up to it my body decided that 79 kilos was where it wanted to stay. I kept going to my WW meetings and I kept handing over my money, but somewhere along the way I exhausted myself and gave up, I got sick of seeing the numbers go up and down. I stopped keeping a food diary and I slipped backwards a bit. I stopped going to Weight Watchers.

This time I can already see what may lie ahead for me if I don't remain focused. I could easily slip up and allow this few weeks to turn into months and before I know it I'm 75 kilos again.

I'm not going to let it happen.

This time I will be victorious. I know that I will have to deal with weigh-in disappointments as they come, but this girl is not throwing in the towel. I've worked too hard and come too far to let anything stop me from being the girl I want to be, and that is at my goal weight.

And of course I am not going to stop the detox for anything.

I actually foresee next week being a lot better because I did have a bad weekend going into this detox, and now since I cannot eat anything bad for me the weekend shouldn't be hard to keep under control.

Comments

Argy said…
Your body is working hard right now to get rid of all the toxins and other crap. Give it some time to adjust, thinks like this happen with detox, you get on the scales daily to see the same, and one magical day you get on them and see a kilo and a half gone!

Have faith, stick to it, and you will smile at the end :)
4:39 pm
lainb said…
don't get yourself down yet...it will all be worth it!!
3:25 am
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