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Unbelievable results

You may have noticed that I changed the 70 to the left to 71. I don't know how it happened, but I actually gained weight this week.

What is happening to me?

I don't know what is going on, but the scale did say 71 two days in a row. Yes, I am at the end of my TOM and that could contribute to some of it, but a whole kilo? I looked at my calorie count from this week and I went over 1500 only 2 days, Friday and Saturday. Although I did much better this weekend than last, I still struggled with eating more on my off days than during the week.

Another reason I had a horrific week was the heat. We had 4 days of over 40C in a row. Now that is just wrong. I can't handle heat very well. I did go for a walk on Saturday and when I came home thought I was going to die from heat exhaustion.

Not good at all.

I almost declared this week a no-weigh week due to my TOM but have decided to take it as it comes.

So I weigh 71 today. Excuse my language but that number really scares the shit out of me.

I fear I am experiencing a major relapse.

My psychologist spoke to me in great detail about relapses and how normal they are when anyone makes major changes in their life, especially when it comes to weight-loss.

It doesn't make it any easier to accept.

In other news, I almost successfully followed 1 day on the WW no count plan. Almost.

Nowhere to go from here but down? Damn lets hope so.

And finally a queston: Is it just me or do the swirls on this dress make my bum look like the side of a bus?

a family affair

Comments

Anonymous said…
No your dress doesn't make you look the size of a bus! You look fantastic. I hope you find your 1 kilo gain is a minor fluctuation. Hang in there I know gains suck! I'm up from last year by 40 lbs. YIKES, I need to get back to WW also.

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Anonymous said…
I love your dress! You look gorgeous!

Don't get discourage by 1 kilo now. You've come such a long way. Be proud and persevere!

Also, since weekends tend to be more problematic than weekdays, when you are probably more busy, maybe finding a weekend activity or hobby would help you find something to focus on and take your mind away from food or dieting or whatever. I don't know your lifestyle, but that's whay I'd do.

Stay positive!
Denise said…
My gosh, you look amazing, Rebekah...just like a model. Wow! (Very inspiring over here, btw.)
Anonymous said…
hey sweety! I just have ot say that I know how hard yesterday's entry would have been for you to write. I am so proud of you and want you to know that you ARE one beautiful, beautiful woman and noone can take that away from you now. You don't need to hide how gorgeous you are anymoreto protect yourself and you don't need to sabotage your efforts to hide your fine self!!!!!!!!!!!! you have swapped the "fat" for a massive community of believers and supporters, myself included, and that wonderful husband of yours has done his part too in healing you. One kilo is perhaps all that emotional baggage that you just shared with us! I'm with Argy - big hugs sweety. Big hugs.
Anonymous said…
You mentioned before you are on Prozac now. Doesn't that have a side-effect of weight gain in some people?
Zephra said…
I think the dress is cute on you. I was surprised when I saw that picture. I don't know what 70 kilo is in pounds but I expected someone a lot bigger than.
Belladora said…
That dress totally flatters you!

Hang in there...weight loss is all about the ups and downs and sometimes our bodies just don't cooperate...but it'll come back off, no worries:)
Soul Searching said…
I think you look fabulous in that dress! It's a really cute dress, too, so that doesn't hurt, but it fits you so well. I wouldn't sweat the 1k if you know you're making the right choices.
Shannin said…
That is a fab dress and you look gorgeous!

When I only weighed myself weekly, I used to prefer Fridays which gave me some recovery time from any bad weekend eating. Of course, I now weigh myself everyday... Just because I'm neurotic.
Sooz said…
Yep, it's just you! ;-)
The dress looks terrific. Trust me. If I didnt think so, I wouldn't comment. *wink*

1 kilo can definately be attributed to a bit of water retention honey.
CAD Monkey said…
It *is* just you- you look GREAT!!
Anonymous said…
That dress doesn't make you look fat at all, so you must be doing well. Most people would look enormous in that type of design, let me tell you!

You look great! I don't know how much 71 kilos is, either, do you know what that is in pounds?

Just found your blog, am enjoying it!
Anonymous said…
I just converted 71 kilos to lbs -- it is supposed to be 154 lbs.

I am 90 kilos (200 lbs.) and 5 feet 11 inches tall. Just sayin'.
Stacey said…
You look awesome in that dress! (I would do anything to have a shapely bum that fits my figure like yours does for you) Again you look amazing.

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