So yesterday was weigh-in day. Well, instead of losing copious amounts of weight like the detox promised, I actually gained 200 grams.
Words cannot describe how I felt. When I eat a lot of crap and gain weight I know that I am the only one to blame, but when you do everything right and you find that instead of seeing your weight drop, you actually gain, there is nothing to blame it on.
I left the meeting without staying for the lesson because as I walked back to the car I burst into tears. I sat there and sobbed for a while talking to mr. ralph about how I felt.
From that point on I knew that the detox was toast. So this morning reading all your comments about how proud of me you all are made me feel worse. Don't be proud of me. I had one of the worst emotional eating days of all time.
I ate KFC for lunch with a twister wrap thing and some fries, I ate frozen fish (although the lowfat one from the freezer section) and some frozen fries along with 3 beers and a CC and dry for dinner. I also ate 2 lindt chocolates.
I wasn't even going to confess that I quit the detox 2 days early because I felt so horrible for allowing my emotions to get the best of me, but I can't pretend to you guys.
So in 19 days the total amount I lost from doing this detox is 1 kilo. I'm not sure that this is the detox fault, as I said before I was eating pretty strict before. I think that my body is really fighting me on this last 3 kilos.
I've hit the biggest wall and instead of being a fighter I crumbled. And how do I feel today? I'm very depressed.
I know all the right things to do. I know I should just keep doing what I know is right and eventually I should burst through the plateau, but I seriously don't know how to cope with more weeks of doing all the right things and not reaping any reward for all my hard work.
So that is where I am. I guess it is a crossroads. It is for me to decide where I go from here.
Words cannot describe how I felt. When I eat a lot of crap and gain weight I know that I am the only one to blame, but when you do everything right and you find that instead of seeing your weight drop, you actually gain, there is nothing to blame it on.
I left the meeting without staying for the lesson because as I walked back to the car I burst into tears. I sat there and sobbed for a while talking to mr. ralph about how I felt.
From that point on I knew that the detox was toast. So this morning reading all your comments about how proud of me you all are made me feel worse. Don't be proud of me. I had one of the worst emotional eating days of all time.
I ate KFC for lunch with a twister wrap thing and some fries, I ate frozen fish (although the lowfat one from the freezer section) and some frozen fries along with 3 beers and a CC and dry for dinner. I also ate 2 lindt chocolates.
I wasn't even going to confess that I quit the detox 2 days early because I felt so horrible for allowing my emotions to get the best of me, but I can't pretend to you guys.
So in 19 days the total amount I lost from doing this detox is 1 kilo. I'm not sure that this is the detox fault, as I said before I was eating pretty strict before. I think that my body is really fighting me on this last 3 kilos.
I've hit the biggest wall and instead of being a fighter I crumbled. And how do I feel today? I'm very depressed.
I know all the right things to do. I know I should just keep doing what I know is right and eventually I should burst through the plateau, but I seriously don't know how to cope with more weeks of doing all the right things and not reaping any reward for all my hard work.
So that is where I am. I guess it is a crossroads. It is for me to decide where I go from here.
Comments
I've visited a few times in the last few months, and I have to say you are amazing. Don't kick yourself over it. You've got a hell of a lot more willpower than I!
Don't sweat the small stuff sweetie.
Michele sent me.
You sound very self-aware, pretty soon you'll brush yourself and make the best decision for yourself. I'm sending good vibes!
Here from Michele's Meet and Greet!
Chin up girl you're doing really well and you need to give yourself the credit you deserve.