Dinner tonight is mixed nuts and frontinac. Mmmm! Yummy too.
I survived this week at work, just barely. Finally my team leader has decided to be super supportive and has been giving me a lot of off the phone work. It has helped, some.
I don't really think I need to tell most of you this, but the answer to my problem isn't really as simple as finding another job. I wish it was, but I don't plan on living here forever and I am on workcover. It is complicated. End of story. I will work where I do until I move. I will take each day as it comes. And of course I will bitch about it here, because I can.
I also can't simply turn on and off my emotions by telling myself I should be positive. It would be terrific if it worked that way, but because I am human I will continue feeling the way I do until something actually changes inside me.
There have been a few changes. Most of them are good. I have lost a small amount of weight. I think I weigh around 67 kilos. I'm not sure. I can almost fit into that gorgeous dress (still don't know if I can wear it tomorrow), and I am feeling a bit more like myself.
I'm not crying about the friend that decided to take a break from me. It is not because I don't miss her, or feel bad about her decision, it is because I think she has made up her mind and there is nothing I can do to change it. Simple as that.
I feel that the psychologist is helping me and I look forward to making more headway as time goes on.
And I will let you know soon if I wear the dress or not. It is still a tad snug.
I survived this week at work, just barely. Finally my team leader has decided to be super supportive and has been giving me a lot of off the phone work. It has helped, some.
I don't really think I need to tell most of you this, but the answer to my problem isn't really as simple as finding another job. I wish it was, but I don't plan on living here forever and I am on workcover. It is complicated. End of story. I will work where I do until I move. I will take each day as it comes. And of course I will bitch about it here, because I can.
I also can't simply turn on and off my emotions by telling myself I should be positive. It would be terrific if it worked that way, but because I am human I will continue feeling the way I do until something actually changes inside me.
There have been a few changes. Most of them are good. I have lost a small amount of weight. I think I weigh around 67 kilos. I'm not sure. I can almost fit into that gorgeous dress (still don't know if I can wear it tomorrow), and I am feeling a bit more like myself.
I'm not crying about the friend that decided to take a break from me. It is not because I don't miss her, or feel bad about her decision, it is because I think she has made up her mind and there is nothing I can do to change it. Simple as that.
I feel that the psychologist is helping me and I look forward to making more headway as time goes on.
And I will let you know soon if I wear the dress or not. It is still a tad snug.
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I think I might need a 'gorgeous' something myself to inspire me.
Good to hear you in a softer place. You sound calmer, more peaceful. :-)
I, myself, can't wait for you to post a picture of you in that dress, which I know will be soon.