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Sadness



Fidelity (lyrics)
(shake it up)
i never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truely i got lost in the sounds
i hear in my mind all these voices
i hear in my mind all these words
i hear in my mind all this music
and it breaks my heart(x2)
and it breaks my h-h-h-h-eart(x2)
suppose i never ever met you
suppose we never fell in love
suppose i never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
suppose i never ever saw you
suppose you'd never ever called
suppose i kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
just to break my fa-a-a-a-a-a-ll (x3)
break my fall(x2)
all my friends say that ofcourse it's gonna get better
gonna get better
better (x7)
i never loved no body fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truely
i got lost in the sounds
i hear in my mind all these voices
i hear in my mind all these words
i hear in my mind all this music
and it breaks my heart(x2)
i hear in my mind all these voices
i hear in my mind all these words
i hear in my mind all this music
and it breaks my heart(x2)
and it breaks my h-h-h-h-eart(x3)
and it breaks my heart(x4)
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Comments

Man Named Kim said…
i wandered over here from the comment you left over at my place.

you have been blogging for some time. it is amazing how much things have changed over the years. i started out over at deadjournal.com (remember that?) and have jumped around from space to space a bit.

nice to find you. you have some real, raw stuff here. i'm off to click around here some more.

Namaste'
Anonymous said…
wow..these are some very powerful words. I'm glad you shared the picture, it makes it more real.

Please don't stop writing. As much as it must be an outlet for you, I'm hanging on to your every word here.

Bella x

http://bellamocha.wordpress.com/2008/08/17/sunday-scribblings-observations/
Jean-Luc Picard said…
A powerful poem, with great depth.

Michele sent me here.
Wenchy said…
hello my friend.

I am so incredibly happy that you left me a message on Flickr.... I have thought about you so many times. Nice to meet up with you again.

Much love
Wenchy

www.thenocturnalwench.wordpress.com

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