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water from stones

from Chapter 14 of Women Who Run With The Wolves, La Selva Subterranea: Initiation of the Underground Forest

"During the darkest times of the feminine unconscious, the uterine unconscious, Nature, feeds a woman's soul. Women describe that in the midst of their descent they are in the darkest dark and are touched by the brush of a wing tip and feel lightened. They feel an inner nourishing taking place, a spring of blessed water bursting forth over parched ground. . . from where they do not know. The spring does not solve suffering, but rather nourishes when nothing else is forthcoming. It is a manna in the desert. It is water from stones. It is food out of thin air. It quells the hunger so we can go on. And that is the whole point. . . to go on. To go on toward our knowing destiny"

tears


I don't know what to say anymore. I'm still here, I'm still struggling, but still going forward.

Comments

Sue said…
I love the "speechless" quote! I hope it gets better!
carmilevy said…
Life always seems to through its toughest challenges at the people who are best equipped to handle them.

Here's to your continued strength.

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