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I think it is time

I should stop starting every entry with the fact that I don't know my weight, but I feel it is necessary. I don't know it. But I know that I still have around 10 kilos I want to lose. I know this instinctively. I am considering weighing myself soonish, but I am not ready. If I weigh above 70 it will really hurt my pride.

The thing is most of the time I feel really good. Yesterday I walked into the city again. Feels amazing to do that! After I was there I had a coffee and walked around a bit and then came back up through Norwood. Then mr. ralph met me for lunch. I didn't eat very healthy, but I was starving.

Last night I decided it is time to start counting calories again. I am going to use SparkPeople

I feel as if I am ready to do this.

I have decided that I can commit myself to tracking and exercise for 2 months. I will do it. I should lose at least between 5-10 kilos. And if I don't what have I lost in time? Two months. That is all. Plus I am really ready to do this. I waited until I wanted to do it. And now I do.

Good isn't it?

Comments

Anonymous said…
hell yeah!

*ms ralph cheersquad goes WILD!*
5:48 am
Shannin said…
I think, sometimes, I'd rather judge my weight by the size I'm wearing rather than the scale. Of course, I'd be depressed today since a pair of 16 capris wouldn't fit, but on Friday I wore a pair of linen slacks that were a size 18.

Numbers - they play a nasty head game.
7:18 am
Wenchy said…
You go girl!!!
10:00 pm
Belladora said…
I love SP....I hope you do too:)
11:39 pm
M@rla said…
Welcome back to the scale, baby!! Oh, I'm kidding, that's nothing to celebrate; you know that evil scale is chuckling in anticipation. But I'm glad you've decided on a plan of action - and you are confident and calm about it, that is so important.

Did you have your Deadwood party yet?
7:48 pm
Anonymous said…
Hi there,

I have just spent a few days reading your archives, and I think you are amazing! I know how tough it can be to be in a foreign country, and to diet, AND to have all your health problems- you are one of the most positive people I have ever read. Good luck!
1:52 am
Anonymous said…
hey gorgeous girl! Guess who is back? Yep! Me! It must be so hard when you get to your weight. Technically, you are at a very healthy and attractive weight, but only you know when it will feel right! I can totally understand why you don't want to weigh. Your weight has no reflection at this point of how you look! Maybe you should buy a goal outfit or something or get the measurements of someone whose figure you admire and make that your goal now?
9:40 pm
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