Can you believe it is 5 weeks until Christmas?
I was in denial about it. It couldn't possibly be November! Then last weekend I went to a friend's house-warming party. I ended up in a conversation with one of my friend's mothers who started asking me about my family and what we normally do for the holidays, and if I miss them.
Well, now I am stuck grieving for my family.
I decided not to celebrate Thanksgiving this year. Every year I try to do something traditional. I cook some turkey, some kind of stuffing and some sweet potato casserole. But it never feels the same. I mean, it is over 90 degrees and the people I eat with don't even like cornbread dressing! And, I can never make the way my mother does. It is an impossible task. So I'm not doing it.
Yesterday I was talking to my sister and she reminded me that the year I moved away (2002) we had to have Thanksgiving dinner early for me just so I could have mom's cornbread dressing.
I'm so sick of 2006. This year has to be one of the worst years of my life. I think I remember saying that about 2005 too, but just when you think life can't get worse, it does!
I want the year to be over. So I am starting my new year's resolution early. That's right, November 19th marks a new beginning for me.
For the past few months my weight has gone up and down on a weekly basis. I know this because of the way my clothes fit. The main reason for it is because I have had too much to deal with emotionally. I try to focus on weight-loss and by the 2nd day I'm drowning myself in a bottle of red. One week I feel so awful that I can't even eat and probably drop 5 kilos, the next I am eating chips and dim sims for dinner. Why? Well because I didn't eat the week before of course!
It has been a total disaster.
Next Friday is my first Christmas party. It is for work. I remember last year how thin I was for the same party. I was so happy.
I don't have that much of a plan yet. I am jumping the gun by writing about it before actually thinking it through.
There is one thing I will be doing, and that is writing. I always do much better with this when I write. So look forward to more entries!
Also, what do you think about the new gigs?
I was in denial about it. It couldn't possibly be November! Then last weekend I went to a friend's house-warming party. I ended up in a conversation with one of my friend's mothers who started asking me about my family and what we normally do for the holidays, and if I miss them.
Well, now I am stuck grieving for my family.
I decided not to celebrate Thanksgiving this year. Every year I try to do something traditional. I cook some turkey, some kind of stuffing and some sweet potato casserole. But it never feels the same. I mean, it is over 90 degrees and the people I eat with don't even like cornbread dressing! And, I can never make the way my mother does. It is an impossible task. So I'm not doing it.
Yesterday I was talking to my sister and she reminded me that the year I moved away (2002) we had to have Thanksgiving dinner early for me just so I could have mom's cornbread dressing.
I'm so sick of 2006. This year has to be one of the worst years of my life. I think I remember saying that about 2005 too, but just when you think life can't get worse, it does!
I want the year to be over. So I am starting my new year's resolution early. That's right, November 19th marks a new beginning for me.
For the past few months my weight has gone up and down on a weekly basis. I know this because of the way my clothes fit. The main reason for it is because I have had too much to deal with emotionally. I try to focus on weight-loss and by the 2nd day I'm drowning myself in a bottle of red. One week I feel so awful that I can't even eat and probably drop 5 kilos, the next I am eating chips and dim sims for dinner. Why? Well because I didn't eat the week before of course!
It has been a total disaster.
Next Friday is my first Christmas party. It is for work. I remember last year how thin I was for the same party. I was so happy.
I don't have that much of a plan yet. I am jumping the gun by writing about it before actually thinking it through.
There is one thing I will be doing, and that is writing. I always do much better with this when I write. So look forward to more entries!
Also, what do you think about the new gigs?
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