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More on The Red Shoes

I still haven't finished that section. I blame it on seeing myself in the story.

The explanation of what happens to her and her desire for the shoes is similar to something I am experiencing now.

The writer describes it as somewhat of a famine in her life. She was psychologically starving. Having something you need be missing from your life for a significantly long time is very detrimental to the decisions you make.

I felt so fat yesterday. I had one of the worst self-image days I have had in a very long time. Everything contributed to it.

I wanted to wear a jacket that is now too tight, it doesn't matter that when I bought it last winter it barely fit and I knew a half a kilo more would make it too small...

I also felt every inch of my jeans pushing into my skin.

I hate my legs and arms. Sometimes I want to cut strips off of my body. I don't like telling people these things. I think they will look at me and think what a crazy person I am.

Does anyone else ever feel so disgusted about themselves?

Oh and I just want to add that the person who said I should make my own goals was absoluetly right. But the way other people feel about me helps me because I have such a distorted body image that I can see 100 kilos most of the time.

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