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Dealing with things

Dear Blog,

I've been avoiding you. I'm sorry. I told myself I wouldn't stop writing when things were not going well the way that other people do, but I haven't held up to my end of the bargain.

I wish I could say that I have lost weight and am doing wonderful, but I can't.

I'm having drinks to celebrate my 31st birthday tonight. (b-day is on Tuesday) I think I weigh more than I did on my 30th birthday. Just in case you are wondering, it is 71 kilos.

Remember how I said I wouldn't let myself get into the 70's again? Well I keep losing and then gaining back the same kilo.

Beck is going to be in Adelaide and I get to meet her. I've been wanting to meet her for a long time. We missed each other last year when I was in Melbourne.

I am hoping that some of her positive energy she's got going on right now will rub off on me. I definitely need a pep talk and if there is anyone to give it, she's it. She is amazing.

Will let you know how it goes and of course take pics!

Comments

If that Feb. 19 picture is you, I would hardly say you are overweight. Just be nice to your blog, and everything will be fine.

(I'm here from Michele's place.)
Argy said…
I say...screw 71! It is a number darling. Just a number. You are so much more than just a number! Never forget this!

Now I will repeat how green I am you and Beck are meeting. I just die to were there with you!!!
Wenchy said…
YOU are so much more than a number. You are fabulous!

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