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You must not miss me at all if 5 weeks feels like 2 to you.
I guess you're so busy celebrating your doctorate, and enjoying all of your free time.
Maybe the girl who you were getting texts from when I was unable to walk after the car hit me has been able to send you messages again.
Maybe you can turn your phone off silent.
Sometimes I'm angry.  But mostly I am sad.  I listened to this sad song on my ipod over and over and over again on my way to work with tears in my eyes.
This makes me feel it is time to change my ipod.  I've lost one of them again, so when I wipe the songs off the silver one it will all be on me to download and figure out how to do new ones.
It is like I'm starting over in everything.
After Lars went out to her bday party on sat night I went to see a movie by myself. I knew I wouldn't run into you at the Nova.  You detest art films so much.  And it was about Coco Chanel, even more reason you'd never go.  You were probably somewhere watching Iron Man II.  I hated the film.  I plan to boycott Chanel products for the rest of my life.  The content was a little upclose and personal, hit way to close to home. 
When I left I bought my favourite special fried rice with chicken from my favourite shop on Rundle street and I walked home. 
It felt weird doing these things by myself.  But it also was ok.  I knew I'd spend time with Lara on Saturday/Sunday so I was fine.  I've gotten so much closer to Georgie too, I didn't realise that would happen.
I guess there are many reasons why it is good and I should be thanking you.
Just not today.

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