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"Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have - life itself."
Walter Anderson

I continue to have bad moments, periods of prolonged sadness and depression about my situation. I think I'm not only driving myself insane but Ashley as well.

I want badly to be positive and think about the good things and not the bad but it is very hard.

I'm in just enough pain to keep me from being able to do anything on my own except going to the loo and heating a cup of soup or getting myself a drink.

I've never been a big TV watcher, even on my days off I'd spend half the day walking around rundle mall shopping or going for a bike ride. I have never watched so much TV in all my life, and I feel lazy and sad and lonely. I've yet to feel even happy about the break from work, to tell you the truth I'd much rather be working than lying here on this couch worrying about how long it will take for my wounds to heal.

I choose that quote at the top of the entry because I want to feel that way. I don't want to be so focused on the negative, but I'm not there yet.

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