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from Chapter 14, of Women Who Run With The Wolves, La Selva Subterranea: Initiation of the Underground Forest

"during the darkest times of the feminine unconscious, the uterine unconscious, Nature, feeds a woman's soul. Women describe that in the midst of their descent they are in the darkest dark and are touched by the brush of a wing tip and feel lightened. They feel an inner nourishing taking place, a spring of blessed water bursting forth over parched ground. . . from where they do not know. The spring does not solve suffering, but rather nourishes when nothing else is forthcoming. It is a manna in the desert. It is water from stones. It is food out of thin air. It quells the hunger so we can go on. And that is the whole point. . . to go on. To go on toward our knowing destiny"

I know I've posted this before. But I feel it is vital to use again.

I woke up at 3am unable to go back to sleep.

The thing is, I've got so many decisions to make about my future. I'm at a real cross in the road so to speak.

I don't really know where to go, or what is best. I'm really trying to find wisdom to tell me the right way.

I'm not a perfect person. I've made a lot of mistakes. But sometimes mistakes are meant to be forgiven. The thing is, there is no one that is perfect out there. We all have warts, just a different variety.

I just want forgiveness. I want to be free of guilt and free of the carnage. I don't know if this person can do that.


Quote above from Clarissa Pinkola Estes, an amazing woman and author.

Comments

Anonymous said…
I'll forgive you.

But there's nothing for me to forgive.

I'm here for you, darling. :)

PS: This is Melissa. I'm posting from my livejournal account. Ha. Sorry for the confusion.
10:12 am
Man Named Kim said…
for me, forgiveness seems to begin with me forgiving myself. once that truly happens, the trust and care of others often follows.

there is pain in this post. feel string and keep moving.
12:15 pm
Wenchy said…
Forgiveness DOES start with self and is the hardest of all.
4:31 pm
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