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I weighed myself today.

Fuck.

This is very bad. I had no idea? How could I not know that I had gained so much? I am ashamed. I don't even want you to know how much.

I wish I could say that I am motivated to change and feel excited about it, but I just feel like my lungs are filling up with water and I cannot breathe.

I have not gained all of it back, that is something at least. But I have to start over again. I can't believe I once weighed 67 kilos.

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Greta said…
I TOTALLY understand how you feel. I REALLY do. When I gained my weight, I gained all 50 pounds of it in a 5 month period. It came on so fast I KNEW it was bad but I still would not get on the scale. And even though I finally did (get on the scale) it did not motivate me at all. If anything it pushed me farther over the edge. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you....it just has to be the right time for you. You'll just know, ok its time for me to get healthy. You can't force yourself to a place you aren't at. You'll get there. I can't say I KNOW you but I've read your blog enough over the past few years to know you will get there. Good luck!!
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