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It is not you, its me

I know it seems like I am avoiding you. It is not just that I don't want to write, it is that I don't want to deal with any of this. I don't know what I weigh. I think I may find out tomorrow, or not.

I have been stressed out lately. Don't know if I am depressed or just meh.

Sigh.

The Australian Biggest Loser program isn't as good as the US one. I haven't seen very much that actually inspires me. A lot of bitching etc. It is pathetic. I liked the idea of the show because I thought it would be helpful for those with weight problems. I don't know that it is.

Things are meh all over the place. My relationship with mr ralph also needs much attention. I feel like crap.

I know I shouldn't wallow. I am sorry for wallowing. But I wanted to update you on how things are going.

I also have a lot of pain right now in my neck/shoulders. I am beginning to see a pattern for when I feel bad and have stress and the amount of pain I have. I also haven't been walking much.

Kitty love

Comments

Daydreamer of Oz said…
Hi there....I actually quite like the Australian Biggest Loser. While there is bitching etc, you have to keep in mind that it is a game....they're playing for money not just to lose weight.

Looking at your chart of goals it looks like you've done an amazing job! Some people can't lose the amount you have...You should reflect on your accomplishments ;)
7:54 pm
carmilevy said…
I hope the sine wave that is our individual's view of the world starts to trend upward for you soon. If I could send words your way that would help, believe me I would.
10:12 am
Wenchy said…
You will get your groove back again sweetie.

We do not have a Biggest Loser program here in South Africa... hope we get to at least see your re-runs! :o)
8:25 pm
Shannin said…
I know you didn't post anything funny, but for some reason when I read "meh" I thought it said "meth." Yes, I am dyslexic...

I am sending you some virtual hugs. I know you're in a tough spot right now, and I hope it gets better shortly.
10:44 am
Bella said…
That is the cutest pic of your cats...;-)
8:15 pm
Belladora said…
Hang in there...we are all rooting for you:)
12:44 am
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