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Hell

I feel like I should be writing. I've missed it. I look back at my enormous archives and ache for all the time lost. All the moments I didn't put in here. I read your comments and I see all the support my readers have always given me. It makes me feel loved.
I'm not doing well. This is not a surprise I know. I always write when I'm depressed.
The thing is I write and then I don't like what I've written. I delete it. I write again, I delete.
I feel so dead.
Like the car should have killed me.
No.
Like the car did kill me.
Like the last year has been purgatory.
And now the past 5 weeks have been hell.

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