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Starting over

Hmm. Starting over is never easy. I'm on a new journey this time. I want to do this for different reasons. I want to do it for me.

This week has been an okay one food wise, but I haven't been walking. I have had to suffer rain, but we needed it so it is hard to be mad about it.

I know I may have lost a tiny bit of weight, but probably not much. Will weigh myself tomorrow. I had a few too many drinks still. BUT I swear I am trying! It is hard right now.

I want to go to the doctor and request some weight-loss drugs. I don't think my doctor will give me them, and I know it is a weak way out, but I want the help.

So don't judge me!

Thanks so much for the support lately. Even the few of you who still check to see if I am around, your words mean a lot to me.

Comments

Wenchy said…
I am so glad you doing 365......... I have been trying also.... but here I am at midnight eating an ENTIRE packet of Dorito's.

Fuck.
7:33 am
Wenchy said…
Hey... Just checking in to see how you are doing.

Thinking of you.

me
10:51 pm
Anonymous said…
C'mon girl, let us hear something from you!

xox
3:09 am
Belladora said…
I'm glad to see you are still around. I hope to hear positive things from you:)
10:42 pm
Anonymous said…
hey gorgeous! how you doing?
8:07 pm
...jus me said…
Where are you girlfriend? I just started over yesterday! UGH!
9:49 am
For today said…
One of the things about this whole blogging world, is that after a few reads you feel as though you know the person behind the blog. And it's like meeting up for coffee just to chat about all the things that are going on in our lives. We go through it all, and ride the emotional roller coaster ride with who ever behind the blog, and when you, (we) puke, ewww, laugh, we support you buy cleaning you up with our words of encouragement and caring.

When your M.I.A. we still show up for coffee and pour you a cup just in case you show up and it's never the same without you.

We miss you, even the silent ones who like me, rarely post comments but who read you daily and silently cheer you on. Through the good, bad, ugly and indifferent, through old issues and new.

Sometimes we need a break, and that's understandable, but like good friends, whilst we accept your need for space, where still here asking WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? Laugh!

So come out come out wherever you are, I'm starting over too and It's hard, because whilst we're disgusted with ourselves becasue we just don't seem to be able to get it right, those that truly care about us, never are.

Come back soon, your coffee's getting cold! And it's not the same without you.
11:20 pm
Wenchy said…
Hey.You okay????
7:58 am
Amber said…
Hi, first time reader/commenter here... but I just wanted to let you know... I have a weight problem as well and I don't think weight loss drugs are the "easy way out." There is no easy way out when it comes to losing weight; it's an emotional AND physical AND mental BATTLE. Arm yourself with whatever you feel is best for YOU is my motto. I'm trying WLS pills that mimic the gastric bypass effect. I'm a little leery, but I'm really going to give it a go this time. You can read about it at: www.zetacap.com - you don't have to talk to your doctor (although that is who recommended them to me) and you can make your own, informed, choice. I wish you the best of luck and I'll be back to see how you're doing! :)
12:03 pm
Unknown said…
Where are you?
12:59 am
Anonymous said…
Hi,
It has been a long time, but I am still checking in on you! Weight loss is a never ending journey, and one that comes with bumps and forks in the road. Do whatever you have to in order to feel good about yourself!

Take care
2:40 am
Anonymous said…
Its been awhile since your last blog. Where are you?
4:47 pm
Anonymous said…
I think about you often and hope you are doing ok. I know things got crappy for you but hang in there, ok.
8:10 am
Anonymous said…
i am missing you and hoping all is well. it's been so so so long since you've been around and i wish you'd post to let us know how you are.

thinking of you.

(it's september 11, 2007)
8:28 am
Anonymous said…
Hay, lady.

Miss you.

Thought you dropped off the Earth for a while. :)

Hope all is going well, and if you like, you can visit me @ http://countessakasha.livejournal.com/

Or http://www.myspace.com/melissaannepatterson

Miss you, girl!

BTW, I'm married now! :)

Write me!

-- Melissa
11:58 pm
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2:27 pm
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