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Life at 32

Did I make you worry? I am sorry if you have. I guess life got in the way again. I haven't made any progress with my weight, in fact I am bigger. I think around 80 kilos?

I can't be very sure since I haven't exactly been weighing myself. I know that I have had to buy some clothes that are bigger than I think I am.

Ever done that? You pick something off the rack that looks like it will fit you and then you get totally shocked when it is too tight? That really sucks. What a depressing way to start this blog entry!

Anyway I've been on holiday for almost a month now and I've eaten a lot of home cooked meals; you know the kind... the ones where you don't want to know how much fat is in them.

I turned 32 yesterday. I don't want to turn 33 and still be this weight either. I want to get myself back on track.

I do plan on doing that too, as soon as I get back to Adelaide I am going to Weight Watchers and going to join some kind of gym/exercise program. I'm sure that I could stay this way and mr. ralph would continue to love me, but for me the most important thing is that I need to love me. And at the moment I am not happy with myself.

So there you go. I am here kids.

I'll write more soon too. Promise.

Toodles

Comments

Shauna said…
a very happy belated b'day to you! and good luck with it all xxox
Anonymous said…
Glad to see you are okay and very glad to see you back. . .
V
Anonymous said…
Yay! Good to see you're back posting again and yes, you did have me worried! But guess being on holiday there was no need to worry, eh? :)
Anonymous said…
happy birthday and did you proise us something ratbag?????
missed ya!
Lidian said…
Glad to see you back too - I've been checking in to see how you were doing too. I'm back up about 10 lbs more than I'd like and - ugh, how many times am I going to put on weight over Christmas and then struggle - and I mean struggle mightily - to get it off? Sigh. So tired of it. I wish you well and hope to hear how you are doing...all the best, Lidian

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