Wow. I had no idea this content was still here, and yes jezus I don't even remember how blogger works, but I know that I want to write. I like the idea that maybe just maybe someone will read it, but I also just like that I can type a hell of a lot faster than I can put pen to paper, and I've already tried 2 of the newer 'blog sites' like Medium etc. but something about me says that reading someone's thoughts on addiction or depression, or whatever it is you have searched for, you SHOULD be able to read the content for free, I mean come on! We put up with ads already. Plus I can't really say I want the content and old comments to be gone. They are there, they are me. But I do wish I could change the title. I just want to write, right now and not fiddle with starting a new blog. So I've really been struggling with giving up alcohol since 2010? I sort of wish I knew the exact amount of stats and stops but the number is probably VERY BIG. I have
I am now sober (again) for 4 weeks. This time I have to say is different. It is a lot of things, not just one thing that is different. I started seeking spiritual help. I started seeing a psychologist. I keep myself happiest with at least 3 yoga sessions a week, as much time at the beach I can muster on the weekend, daily meditation, and most of the time 2-3 AA meetings per week. So far I've managed to sometimes go days without thinking about having a drink, and when I do I shudder. I know that it won't solve anything, and I don't want to undo any of the good not drinking has already done in my life. I'm like a brand new person. Physically I've lost like 2 sizes and people have said I glow, my skin is starting to improve and my clothes are just falling off of me so I bought some new to me clothes at a op-shop, all of which I love. The past month has been extremely hard for a lot of reasons. First of all I got VERY sick when I relapsed last. I drank en